Saturday, May 14, 2011

Week 1 Post 4th Annual LC Cruise

Well, it's been a week since the 4th annual LC Cruise. Now what?

I'm pleased to say I've had a great week eating wise. Have stayed VLC, high fat all week. Finally successfully into Ketosis. I lost a whopping .4 lbs. Whoopie!

Am I discouraged? Maybe a bit, but as I reflected on what I got from this week I came up with this:

I feel better.
I am in control.
I am hopeful.
I'm not hungry.
I didn't gain weight.
I have purpose.

All, in all a good week non-scale wise. I know this WOE is the best for me, I've done it 4 years now, with the exception of a rough 9 months off and on in 2010. I believe in the science and believe in myself. What more can I ask of myself?

More to come...I'm not going anywhere!

Monday, May 9, 2011

One Day At A Time

Ok, yesterday went great, today has gone well too. Eerily so. Tomorrow I'll be weighing for the first time since returning from the 2011 Low Carb Cruise. I'm trying not to stress about it, since I'm already seeing benefits. My legs have been swelling a lot since I hurt my knee a few months ago. After 2 days LCHF I'm not seeing any swelling or feeling any bloating. Today's question: If you know you are addicted to a substance that does terrible things to your body, why does your brain continue to crave it?

Today's menu:

Breakfast: LC cereal with HWC (3 carbs)
Lunch: Corned beef/butter (0 carbs)
Snack: Corned beef/butter (0 carbs), Starbucks Americano with HWC (2 carbs)
Dinner: T-bone with Bernaise sauce (2-3 carbs)

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Addiction: Relapse and Rededication

Ok, it's been over a year since I have blogged. That should be my first clue. No lie, 2010 kicked my butt. If I ever had any doubt that my weight problems are a result of addiction, I have no doubt now. I started a downward spiral with my last blog post. Several things contributed--frustration that the weight wasn't coming off, a couple of visits with Dr. Mary Vernon (who is brilliant by the way) and finding out I was metabolically fit (which should have made me feel better, but instead depressed me greatly as I was looking for a miracle way to get to goal), and my daughter got married, which although a great thing was financially stressful.

So, what did I do? Well, when we went to Vegas for the wedding I decided to "take a week off". This led to a six month carb binge and a 50 some lb gain. Since January 2011 it's been 2 weeks on, 3 weeks off, etc. I, like addicts everywhere, relapsed. I knew it and was powerless to stop it, or so it seemed.

Fast forward to last week. I was dreading so much seeing everyone on the 2011 Low Carb Cruise because I felt like a complete failure. But...I needed to face the music, so I did. It was painful, true. But the support I got from my friends was tremendous. I got back last night and I am committed to rededicating myself to low carb. I feel better when doing low carb, pure and simple. I know it works and I'll be darned if I'm going to allow myself to relapse back to 336 lbs.

I am going the way of the Swedes. Let's see if the extra fat can keep the binge monster away.

So, I'll be blogging...not for anyone but myself.

Today's menu:

2 scrambled eggs in butter (1 carb)
1/4 cup LC hot cereal with butter (0 carbs)

double Cheeseburger with tomato, pickle, onion, mayo and cheese (5 carbs)

egg drop soup with butter (1 carb)

good day so far...

Wish me luck and if you are a prayer, please pray for God to give me strength.